Short Story - I Am : I'm just a regular guy . I'm just a kid who just a few years ago officially graduated from medical school campus and opened his own practice at home . I like other normal children are obliged to learn well in order to be able to boast of parents at a later date . I also sometimes help children sick neighbor if I have free time . Although it is not in school and college , I remain friends with books daily , for the deepening of medical science . Is not the patient is a family too , should not be carelessly treat .
I'm just a weak man . I am a man a coward . I can only undo themselves even when reminded that the family has incomplete again . My mouth was locked , always avoid questions about my father 's illness . As if I was too afraid to tell it all to others .
I'm just a man disappointing . Born of the Virgin stomach and affection given by the father . In fact, almost every day caressed Mother despite growing up . However , how often do I sacrifice to them can still be counted on the fingers . Someone else can I heal , while his own father let helpless until called by God . You could say , I have destroyed my parents plan to make me be a dutiful son , right? My eyes can only stared Mother weeping beside a white stone inscribed with the name of my father .
I'm just a man who tried to toughen up. Every week should see a new father home . Care and sprinkled flowers on it . Pray he is the only one of the hardest jobs I've ever done . No, I'm not not sincerely pray for him , but the heart still has a sense of not willing to let go . Support - support , suggestions , counsels , everything he had to say to me always ringing in my ears . Especially if you see a patient who came with their father . It feels ... piercing .
Dad is the only reason why I seeked medical . Dad always said that the doctor is a noble job . Dad always said that doctors can save people from pain . Dad always said the doctor is very hard work . Dad always said that doctors should give priority to patients without neglecting the family . That's why I'm trying hard to be a good doctor for children in this world . Also for my own family . But, who knows where I should start , if the initial course I 've failed to save the lives of my loved ones .
" Shinichi Shinichi promise will study hard and opened his own practice in order to save many people . Shinichi also promise to keep my father well until he recovered . " The words had no meaning anymore , because a second after I said that to my father , he went in front of my own eyes . Perhaps you can imagine how a seventeen-year -old child to see firsthand one of the parents go for ever . After they both collected many beautiful memories in their lives .
I'm just a man a hypocrite . I can not say a good man . Mouth and my heart never worked well together whenever communicate with each other . Perhaps out of ten people , at least there may be eight people realize I like to lie and cover everything . What came out of my mouth , as if only the protective covering of the ugliness of my life .
For my patients , I was a friendly doctor . Always smiling anytime . Cheers anytime . And remain calm whenever he has doubts in the works . However , they never know if in every smile contained deepest sadness that can not be for me to reveal to anyone .
For my patients , I was a superhero hero doctor . Has the power to restore the pain in their bodies . In fact there are some children who treats me like a superman . They do not know that I was more suited called heroes oversleep .
Yes any designation of patients to me , I always felt awkward to them . Although I could smile at them back healed after having consulted me , once again every smile represents the deepest sadness that is in my mind . Sometimes when I can not stand , finished practice definitely my tears fall alone . Realizing that I had made my life more and more worse . Given that I will not see Daddy again when I get home later .
Speaking of family , I have a brother and a female . Yes , I was the youngest . In addition there is I who became a doctor , my sister went on to become a famous model , while the eldest brother to be a musician to go international . Compared with my two brothers , only I failed to be a filial son . They 're both successful and make my father proud smile .
I do not know , I feel differently own . Only I did not see Dad smile when I managed to become a doctor and opened his own practice . Only I did not get any of my father when I was successful . And only I were not willing to see Dad go .
Not ! I do not want to get rewarded for my success . I did not want anything in return from my success . But ... I do not know . I do not know how to explain this feeling . I just do not feel it managed to reach my goal . Because my goal is not just true of becoming a doctor . But , witnessed with their own eyes smile happy father have a child like me .